Time for a Rant

I open my eyes on Sunday at my usual 6:30AM, except it’s only 5:30. I pretend for another hour, but it isn’t the same. I give up when it reaches 6:30 because the dog doesn’t know about time changes.

While she eats her bowl of food, oblivious to my grumpiness, I change the time on the microwave with a few easy clicks. Then I drag a chair over to the counter so I can climb up and adjust the clock on the wall. On my knees, I take the clock down, fiddle with the wheel at the back and hang it back up, leveling it with the border on the wall, because the ceiling isn’t quite flat. It’s an old house.

Later, sitting on my couch, I stare with annoyance at a clock on the shelf. Sighing, I stand up to change that one too.

At least I’ll have time for a nap today.

On Monday I wake up at 4:32 and quickly do the math. I have two hours till my alarm and my body still thinks it’s 5:32. I convince myself to go back to sleep for a while.  I wake with a start at 5:48, a minor victory.

Then I head into school where bleary-eyed kids do not understand why they’re so tired. None of us will feel like working, but we’ll plod through the week.

I hate the time change.

It will take several days to adjust, at least a week for my students. When we spring forward, it will take twice as long. If you expand that to the general population, just think of the loss of productivity twice each year.

I get a cold every year about now. I always figured it was due to stress and kid germs and frosty days closed up inside. But it turns out, the seasonal loss of sleep is also associated with increases in illness and even heart disease.

So, who’s bright idea was this anyway? Ben Franklin suggested waking people up early, but the US didn’t jump on the bandwagon until 1918. Back then, the idea was that if people were awake more in daylight hours, we’d save on energy consumption. But it doesn’t work out quite that way in our gadget obsessed age.

Also, it turns out Daylight Savings Time costs us money. The increase in daylight hours apparently causes us to spend lots of money. Then the economy suffers when we switch back in the fall. Maybe that’s why they made it another couple of weeks longer?

I would argue that daylight savings time is bad for the environment. All those extra awake hours of daylight mean more hours in the car, which automatically means more fossil fuels, which explains who was behind the extra hour of DST in 1986.

My husband likes Daylight Savings time better than Standard Time. I just wish we’d pick one and stick to it.

It’s even affecting the quality of this essay.

It’s obviously a conspiracy.

But I have a plan. One day, when I finally retire, I’m going to dutifully change my clocks like I always have. But come spring, I will go to bed an official hour later than I do in the fall. The time will change, but I will not. So there, DST!

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Ripples in Time

On Saturday morning, my husband suggests we go to an out-of-the-way farmer’s market. We get there before they open, but he says “there are things to look at” and we continue down the road. I smile and nod. I’m along for the ride.

He points out a trap shooting place where he went as a kid and reminds me of the restaurant that burned to the ground. Several miles later we pull in to a conservation area where he used to fish.

“We came here even in winter because the water was always open.”

I ask, “Why didn’t it ice over?”

“They have bubblers,” he tells me. “You’ll see.

We park and walk down a gravel road along the “ditches” as the signs call them. He gestures to a row of wooden posts sticking out of the water.

“There were docks on those where we could stand and fish on all sides.”

Bubblers, like tiny fountains, send rings of ripples out around them. “See?” He points.

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We come to a patch of soft ground and spot paw prints.

“Looks like a big dog,” he says.

“Or a cougar,” I guess.

Another set of prints is clearly a racoon.

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He spots a fish making its own set of smaller ripples at the surface, but it’s the only one he sees. No one is here fishing on a Saturday morning, a sure sign that the catfish and crappie are gone. Further on, the ditches open into the Illinois River, where Asian Carp have taken over, dangerously lowering the native species.

A concrete boat ramp sits partially out of the water, skewed at an angle.

“I think this is where we used to launch our boat.”

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As we walk back, he kicks the gravel. “We used to find arrow heads along here, but they’ve probably built this road up with trucks of gravel several times since then.”

As he leans over to point to a tiny frog, it takes off with a powerful foot-long leap into the weeds.

We pull out and head down the road. Looking back, he says, “I must have fished here a hundred times, even though it’s a long drive.”

My childhood home is a city, hours away, so I don’t often run across people and places that bring back those early memories. The manmade landscape has changed many times over in urban renewal. I tend to reminisce about people, their words and how they felt.

His stories are activities: a neighborhood wiffle golf ball tournament, playing baseball where the library is now, and burying treasure in a friend’s backyard. The locations surround us as we live mere miles from where he grew up.

My recollections are moments pinned to a timeline of my life, emotional events that shaped me, as the lead, and the other roles in my story. There are moments of precious friendship, heartbreak, grief, joy, and loss, each one complete with characters and plot, even if the setting’s space is a little fuzzy.

His stories are fixed in place, literally the locations where they occurred. Each adventure is a spot on a map of his childhood, with episodes reoccurring to him as we drive past them in the present.

Our memories of our time together are parallel. He knows when the furnace was put in, when the trees were planted, when our daughters’ cars might need service, even though they live in different states. Mine is a memory of important events: first declarations of love, our daughters’ births and milestones, vacations, graduations, life lessons. He can find spots visited only once. I can find items others have lost in the house. Together we keep the structure of our home and lives in place.

The memories link like the water to the river, endless ripples flowing on.

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Downsizing

For the first time in several years and several pounds, I clean out my clothes closet. Maybe that’s what makes me resolve to be ruthless in getting rid of much of it. A few things with price tags still attached. The dresses that don’t fit and the ones that I kept for unexpected school skit costumes when my daughters were in high school. I don’t really need to keep the flowered bridesmaid’s dress from my best friend’s wedding either. Anything stained or tight or frayed. The piles for Goodwill and the trash grow equally. I toss out pieces of my history.

I pitch a pair of worn sandals and the white heels I wore as a bride that pinched my feet. I send my daughter a picture of a pair of cream-colored flats to see if she wants them.

“Are those from the 80’s?” she texts back.

Hmm. Maybe. Doesn’t seem that long ago.

My pale green prom dress, as unattractive as it was, and my lacy wedding dress go back in. Some stories need to stay.

Now that I’m writing again, everything makes me think of stories. I finish the closet rack and shelves and turn to the dresser. My ruthlessness continues through my sock drawer. They’re just socks after all. But as I’m sorting through a couple decades of t-shirts, I think, it’s no wonder I find it so hard to edit. Everything has associations. Everything ties together to make a whole.

Since I started my blog last fall, I write stories. They’re not as wordy and rambling as the ones I tell in person, but I’ve gradually realized that staying on topic and speaking concisely are not my forte. Every piece I write should be edited down to its essence. I sometimes compose a gripping lede and often add a pithy closing. It’s the squishy middle that bogs me down.

It’s not that I haven’t pared down my clothes before. I have. It’s just that this time, I can pitch my favorite ancient dinosaur t-shirt that says, “Read! Avoid Extinction!”

If there is hope for my wardrobe, maybe there is hope for my essays as well.

Unwanted Info

Back in the days of letter writing I had an aunt who avidly read the newspaper. Whenever she sent letters (which weren’t fascinating reads, as I recall) she would enclose newspaper clippings that she was sure the recipient would be fascinated by or would benefit from reading. A tiny lady with a big purse, if you saw her in person, it was guaranteed that she had a clipping or two in that purse just for you.

As teenagers and young adults, my sister and I would roll our eyes at this aunt’s complete lack of understanding of what any of us would like to read. Now, of course, we find ourselves a bit more like this aunt than we’d like to admit. An Echo of the past.

Do we clip articles out of the newspaper to share with family and friends? Of course not. We know better than that. But….

My siblings and I have group email chains starting with a link that one has sent the rest, leading to retaliatory links sent in return, leading to related topics, links and commentary.

A bit nerdy, you say. Absolutely. But that’s only because they aren’t on social media. Everyone on social media seems to be a descendent of my aunt.

I’m just as guilty. When I see an article, essay, or photo that speaks to me or finally explains what some news/political event was really about, I post it, sure that all my Facebook friends will see it and feel the same way. A few friends click LIKE out of loyalty or based on the headline, a couple will actually read it and comment, and the rest are likely scrolling past rolling their eyes, wondering what on earth I was thinking. (Yep, that’s what I do sometimes. Guilty.)

Newspaper clipping equivalents abound on Twitter. Link after link after link….

Then there are the bloggers. We create our own newspaper clipping’s worth of thoughts and send them out, saying, “Here, read this. This is just what you need to know.”

We often say that our older relatives wouldn’t know what to do with the technology of this modern age. But something tells me my aunt would feel right at home.

Thankful

Almost four hundred years ago, the Pilgrims established a colony on land that was only vacant because Europeans brought in diseases that the native people were unable to survive. The Pilgrims too might have succumbed due to their own ignorance and ineptitude in this new world if not for the aid of the Wampanoag people.  Because of a romanticized notion of the harvest celebration that followed, today Americans set aside the fourth Thursday of November to gather with family and friends and binge eat, sometimes also overindulging in drinks and football.

While I despise the ignorance and arrogance that got us here, I appreciate a day dedicated to appreciation. I’m thankful for a holiday whose focus is bringing people together in gratitude, as well as focusing on another of my favorite things: food.

As cooking rolls along Thanksgiving Day, the  Aromatic scent of turkey will creep out of the kitchen and roll through the house. Baking bread will send a side order of scent. Cranberry sauce made from fresh cranberries will savor its tang until served. Vegetables will simmer on the stove, while sweet potatoes, baked earlier, will reheat in the microwave. Dressing and mashed potatoes will arrive with people to eat them. Pies will rest to the side, waiting to be the finale to a fine meal.

At the table, smiles will be exchanged while dishes and laughter are passed from hand to hand. My dog will beg, then park herself at the feet of the one who slips her the biggest pieces of Thanksgiving goodness. We may need a break before dessert, loosening our belts and regretting the seconds or thirds we served ourselves. Stories will be told, armchair quarterbacks will be on duty, and recipes will be exchanged. Finally we’ll all stand at the door with goodbyes, hugs, and packages of leftovers.

Wishing you all many reasons to be thankful, an abundance of good food and the company of those you love most.

W: a Baseball Fairy Tale

The 2016 World Series for non-baseball fans

Would you like to hear a bedtime story?

Yes, the child said.

So…

Once upon a time there were two bands of merry men. The ones from a land called Chicago called themselves after little baby bears. The others from a land called Cleveland had an inappropriate tradition of calling themselves after native people. They both fought their way through a series of challenges to meet for their final challenge, called the World Series.

Did the whole world fight? the child asked.

Well, no, it’s really just a challenge for one country and a single team in another country. But if the whole world cared about this sport, they were still sure they’d be the best.

The child asked, Are there any princesses in this story?

No princesses, but there are lots of diamonds.

It had been 68 years since Cleveland had won this final challenge, though they had been back to try a few times since. But Chicago had not even made it to the World Series for 71 years and it had been 108 years since they had won it. For years fans remained loyal and said, Next year. But others doubted they would ever break the curse and return.

Are you sure it was 108? the child asked. Sleeping Beauty’s curse lasted for 100 years.

Yes, I’m sure. These merry men and their fans keep exacting statistics.

So, Cleveland and Chicago battled on Cleveland’s diamond. Cleveland won. Then Chicago won. The battle moved to Chicago. Cleveland won two in a row, before Chicago came back and won again. Back in Cleveland, Chicago soundly defeated Cleveland, tying the series 3-3.

It was the final night of the fight. Across the Midwest a storm raged, pelting city after city with rain and hail. But in Cleveland all was well. The challenge began.

Chicago took off with a home run. Chicago fans’ hopes were high. Cleveland fought back. Then Chicago surged ahead, before Cleveland came back hitting. It was the bottom of the ninth. The score was tied 6-6. Fans were in despair.

That’s when the storm reached Cleveland. The rain started slowly at first, then heavier and heavier. The tied game was delayed.

So it was a tie? the child asked.

No, there are no ties in Baseball. The game goes on until someone wins.

Around the country, people sat on the edge of their seats in anxiety and anticipation, while others held their eyes opened and looked at the time, and wondered when the game could continue.

Seventeen minutes, or an eternity later, the rain lifted and the game continued. As the ninth inning ended, the teams remained tied, 3-3 games, the score 6-6.

In the top of the tenth inning a sincere young knight from Chicago hit a line drive, sending a runner to home. Another knight drove in a second run. In the bottom of the tenth, Cleveland tried to strike back, but they were one run shy.

With that, the 108 year curse was ended and the little bears from Chicago were the champions.

Is that the end? the child asked.

Yep, the Cubs won the World Series for the first time in 108 years.

That was a good story, the child said. But I still like princesses better.

On a Dime

 

Realize

Last Sunday I turned Sixty Minutes on in time to watch the tail end of an interview with a woman whose tour group had been kidnapped in Yemen. One thing she said was that she realized that if she and another woman had switched positions, it would have been she who had been shot. She had cheated death by standing a few feet to the side.

My sister had a moment years ago when she was attending an event at a hotel, standing on a walkway overlooking the ballroom, when across from her the identical walkway collapsed killing over a hundred people. That day simply choosing where to stand determined whether you lived or died.

I have never made one of those life or death decisions, unless you count those driving moments when you slam on the brakes or veer out of the way of disaster. But I have been thinking lately about all the decisions made by those that came before me that have made my very existence possible. One might say divine intervention, but still you have to balance that with the individual free will decisions by all who came before us.

Being an American, and not a Native one, all of my ancestors had to make the choice to leave the home they knew and come here to try for something better. I think of the countries they came from and the absolute unlikeliness that their descendants would have met their spouses had they remained in their native lands. I have realized that if any of a string of ancestors had listened to their disapproving parents, my particular sequence of genes could not exist.

I think of the peaceful, fruitful, secure life that I am fortunate to have and the multiple trials and tragedies that influenced every one of my ancestors’ life decisions that led to the mere possibility that my siblings and I could be born. The early widowhood that aborted emigration the first time, but prompted it again several years later. The huge families of children in the 19th century, that ensured descendants, but the loss of a husband to war could make remarriage a financial and practical necessity, more business arrangement than love match. The escapes from persecution and lack of financial opportunities. Then there were the choices of where to settle once they were here. Just as many immigrants do now, they often chose to join family members who had chosen to come before them.

I have realized that my existence is a chance event inextricably tied to world events, which resulted in my mother meeting my father, seven years her senior, in college. If Hitler hadn’t run rampant through Europe and the Japanese hadn’t attacked Pearl Harbor two years before, my father might not have been drafted, might not have been injured overseas, might not have been at the university in time to meet my mother. If their two friends hadn’t determined to bring them each along on their own scheduled date, would they have somehow met on campus?

Worse yet, if any these events had changed as a flip of a coin, without my existence, my children could not be present in the world.

I have realized life can turn on a dime, without our even knowing it.